Today is day 2 of a 10 day water only fast. People keep saying how hard that must be and how strong I am. All I can say is fasting is no where as hard as the chemo I was on. I felt weak and sick and all of that on chemo for a lot longer than 10 days. I’m not kidding myself that this won’t test me physically and emotionally however. Mark wants me to spend this time really thinking about how much time I spend thinking, directly or indirectly, on having cancer and what I am going to do with that time once I don’t have to have appointments and tumors and ostomys to think about. I have thought about that some and the first 2 things that have come to mind are building my photography business with Gary and writing a book. I have never wanted to write a book but for some reason I feel compelled to tell the story of ovarian cancer. I was watching TLC yesterday and a woman’s Dr thought she had ovarian cancer but instead she was pregnant and didn’t know it. The statement that really caught my attention was :

Cancer of the ovaries is the most deadly form of female reproductive cancer. By the time its detected its usually too late to be effectively treated.

I have heard that statement in one form or another for the last 10 months and it makes me crazy. Not only is it treatable it can be detected if there was more awareness for it. All we ever hear about breast cancer. i have nothing against breast cancer but why are they the only ones getting attention? All cancer is hard and deserves awareness and attention so my goal is to get some more awareness and options out to those who need to know. Also I would like to let people know about the options there are in the holistic realm as well. I want to talk about the chemicals and junk in our food and how it plays a factor in our health. I haven’t really thought it through a lot on how I want to go about it exactly but it something I am seriously considering.

I am still thinking through other options as well but I am excited at the thought of doing something besides thinking about being sick

I’m 2 days into this fast and I’ve already lost 3 lbs. I find it kind of funny honestly. At least I can wear some of the clothes that I don’t usually get to during this time when I’m not worried about the ostomy. jeans and swim suits. wooo hoo. I have had to adjust my wardrobe so much over the last 10 months but I feel better and better about it all the time. I do miss jeans however. SOON….