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Thursday, September 1st, 2011

This morning I found myself standing back for a minute and taking in all that the morning had to offer.

I woke up snuggled up to 2 little blonde’s that had made their way to my bed at some point during the night, climbed out of bed and got a quick shower in before getting the girls up and ready for the day. I love how when I wake them up they are almost always all smiles. They both reach for me and give me big hugs (the best way to start the day) We all make our way to the bathroom to begin the ritual of getting 3 ladies ready, I am already realizing that all of us in one bathroom isn’t going to work for long :) , but we all brush our hair and wash our faces etc… I love laughing with them about silly hair styles I try to get them to do and spending a few minutes talking and listening to music. The 3 of us are little music junkies and we spend each morning listening to Pandora while we get ready. Then the task of trying to pick out clothes, I have long ago discovered that I should do this the night before because much like their mother they have WAY too many clothes and they have very strong opinions about what they want to wear. We spent 20 minutes today arguing about what shoes went with a skirt (since they can’t wear flip-flops) until she finally changed into yoga pants and tennis shoes. whew this is going to only get worse as they turn into little woman. At the heart of it all, I just feel blessed to have the girls back full time and getting to spend this valuable time with them. As I drove to work I found myself praying. Praying about the new job opportunity, praying for health and thanking God for the gifts in my life; My girls, My family, My job and My Joel at the heart of my thoughts. I prayed for strength and healing and prayed for worthiness and satisfaction. I am so grateful to have had 2 amazing years to continue to experience life. Yesterday I was telling my new coworker about my sister and how she had found out she was pregnant while at my house helping me with recovering from surgery and how she was devastated at the thought of me not being here when her daughter was born…As we now I WAS not only here but healthy enough to be there for the birth and just a few weeks ago was still here to experience my nieces 1st birthday. Such huge mile stones and experiences I am so grateful to have been able to experience. Life is good today

So here begins a new journey, I am moving into my own condo this week and starting a new chapter. It has been a long hard road the last few months but I have found some bits of joy along the way. Each day that I spend with my girls is priceless, especially since they have been gone to grandparents most of the summer. I heard little girls laughing in the distance at softball practice yesterday and I kept looking to see if it was my two. My heart aches to spend time playing with them but I know that during this time of transition time to play at the grandparents is a great distraction. They will be back with me soon and we will get settled into our new life. This new life is starting to feel a little better. I am getting used to my independence and starting to see some major light in my days. I find myself in moments of happiness lately, something I thought was kind of gone. I have some amazing people in my life that have shown me that I am worthy of love, respect and even FUN. I have been spending time with some new friends and growing my relationships with some old ones too. It’s exciting to see where things will end up.

I like my job for the most part, it’s a lot of standing and some stress but I like the reward of being praised for my skills and talents with the guests. It reminds me that I do have worth under there somewhere. I am doing well enough that 2 departments are fighting over me lol. It’s hard to decide where I really want to be. Part of me wants to really work towards a long term future here and part wants the heck out of here. Only time will tell.

My leg is still swelling a lot. It’s super frustrating but I refuse to let it get me down. It’s just part of the journey at the moment. Dr. Perez(my surgeon) was at the hotel last week and he was surprised by how well I looked and was doing. His wife came up and talked to me and asked what was my diagnosis ect, I told her that Dr Perez told me I would be lucky to live 4 months back in Nov ’09. Her comment to me was “He’s not God” It put a huge smile on my face. She hugged me and told me she would pray for me as they headed for home. I will be seeing Dr Zuckerman later this month also at the hotel so we will see what he has to say at his visit and I will see him for blood work in early August. Well off to work, time for another beautiful day….

I wonder what those Dr.’s think…

Sunday, March 7th, 2010

Whew! 3 days in a row of snowboarding. I wonder what those Dr.’s think since they said I wouldn’t be able to function in 4 or 5 months :) I am BEAT but had a great day. Kim and I took the girls up today. It was MeKaty’s second time ever and Rilynns third. By the end of the day Mekaty had done 2 intermediate runs and Rilynn did 2 runs with me on the main hill including the terrain park. She even hit a jump and landed it. It was so fun to be able to make runs and have her enjoy it with me. It’s only the beginning of many girls ski days to come!

My girls are my inspiration.

Friday, March 5th, 2010

My girls are my inspiration.

They are so encouraging.  They constantly say things like “When you are done with cancer” or “In the spring, when you’re better.” It’s good for my spirit that they are so positive.  I love them with all of my heart.