I am ready for the good stuff. I am ready for the happy ending. I am ready for joy and excitement both. I believe those days are on their way. I actually see bits and pieces of them already. However sometimes they are clouded by others misconceptions and ability to see ugliness in something that was never intended the way they perceive it. I was approached yesterday by my ex husband in regards to my journal and facebook. He has been told that I am righting negative things about him which is not the case in any way shape or form. I actually have nothing negative to say about Darick. He and I are doing our best to facilitate a good relationship for our two beautiful daughters. In all actuality I have even made very kind comments about he and his new girlfriend. If you come to MY blog to try to stir up trouble or to manipulate my words into something negative then all I really have to say is, maybe you should spend your time somewhere else besides my journal. This is a place for me to share my thoughts and journey with those that love me and for me to leave a positive legacy for my children. It is not a gossip site nor do I EVER intend to use it to air my dirty laundry about my marriage. I think that is both immature and damaging to my children. Take my words for what they are and not what you can make them into. I loved Darick very much and am grateful for 10 years and 2 beautiful, amazing daughters. I can’t say that I will never talk about Darick and our interactions because that is my life and that’s where I am, and last time I checked this is my blog. Basically I want to use this to impact my children someday, bring awareness to others about ovarian cancer and be a positive light(to the best of my human ability) to all that read it. As my aunt Teri says “Be a blessing, or be quiet.”