Several times a day we are faced with choices. Do you always choose the right one? I know that I don’t but I have been working harder everyday to make the right choices and handle myself with dignity. When I was met with conflict before I would fight back to a degree and feel like I had to defend myself to be “right.” These days I would much rather fight to be happy rather than to be right. I am tired of defending myself, especially to people who don’t really affect my day to day. Once again I have to hear, from someone else, how if I can go on trips that I shouldn’t ask for help. It makes me laugh because I don’t ask for help. Yes there is an obviousness that I can’t afford to have treatment at times as I might need but I never used fund raised money to go on vacation. I also didn’t realize that because I have cancer my friends and family’s lives should stop also. If a friend or someone I love wants to take me on vacation to make memories and spend time with me then it is nobody’s business. I used to get so worked up thinking I had to fight this battle but I am truly done with it. Done with the battle to be “right.” I am a great person with truly good intentions who has AMAZING friends and a support system that I can barely fathom. It feels freeing not to care what other people think. I can’t guarantee that I won’t ever get sucked back into that but those who love me and truly know me, know that my heart is right. I do my best not to walk around passing judgement on everyone else and their choices and my circle gets smaller and smaller to showcase those who are my real friends. I’ve also learned to set boundaries and not be such a sucker to “give” every time I am asked to. I used to be so afraid that if I didn’t give someone what they wanted that they would reject me. Now I realize that if a person rejects you then good riddance. As long as you are coming from a good place then you can’t make anyone else make the “right” choice. Gosh I am glad I have people in my life like Joel, Brandy, Big B, AJ, Sunnie and all the others(who won’t be mad because I didn’t write their names) who have shown me that I am valuable in their lives and have stuck by me even when I don’t deserve it. What a feeling that is. I also now have Mark G. on my team who hasn’t known me that long but has a heart to help me. People I have met in passing that somewhere along the way have impacted my life so much more than the relationships I have fought so hard for in the past. New starts, new friends and a new year :)

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